Toasted Ezekiel bread “soldiers”, baby carrots, sugar snap peas, grape tomatoes, bell pepper and plenty of hummus to dip.
Sometimes I just feel like I’m a bad person
Okay so I just landed in FLA and I’m super annoyed with myself bc I’m depressed but am trying so hard to be happy and it’s just not working. I don’t know if it’s because I didn’t take my meds until like an hour ago when I usually take them at like 10, but I’m really frustrated. I just feel really blah to say the least. I’m on fucking vacation for gods sake!!! Ugh I hms so much. I’m so tired bc I woke up at 5 am so I could do yoga bc I was afraid I wouldn’t have time to later on today. Stupid eating disorder!!!!!! And I didn’t eat my breakfast until 10:30 so I was starving. Wtf. All I’m thinking about is food.
Going grocery shopping and to WF later. I just want to be happy for fucks sake.
Toodaloo for now
I’ll probs be posting selfie’s while I’m away but I have some previously on my blog already so look through my archive. Hang in there beautiful, I DO want to get better, its just so hard. I feel really trapped, but hopefully there is a way out ya know? Just believe in yourself! xx